Musica...

All the sudden i've turned into a concert junky...in the last two weeks i've gone to 3 concerts..which have all been fabulous. Friday 8/12 went to Dave matthews band concert (w/ black eyed peas as openers) at SBC park. i ended up making friends with a guy who clearly had a weansy too bit much to drink, but a true light hearted fun addition to our group. He was dancing all down the isle way in front of us, some kind of breakdancing i've never seen. he had snuck up to our seating area, and we decided we wanted him to keep dancing in the isle ways, so everytime the security guards came by to question, we pulled him in to stand next to us and acted like he was sitting with us. i guess you never know who you'll meet at a dave concert. i ended up getting handed a ticket for 3rd row seats at the end of the night, so naturally that was ah-mazing!
The following friday i was at the coldplay concert...which i can really say was one of the ALL time top conerts i have ever been to. my seats were on the lawn, i couldn't see the stage nearly as well as at DMB, but the performance, stage prescence, audience interaction, and overall music quality was outstanding. chris martin is truly amazing. they played their song written for johnny cash, and then played the johnny cash song, "ring of fire". both of those songs were extremely well done and an awesome tribute to johnny cash. here's the only pic i have to recount the night at colplay...after the concert we went down to the seating area and decided (like dorks) that we would take a picture up close to the stage as "proof" that we did indeed have good seats.


The next night was Jack Johnson (opened by Matt Costa) at the Greek theater in Berkely. This concert too...(and i promise i'm not always easy to please w/ concerts) was awesome. Very differnt from Colplay's performance style, but still sooo good. He had so many different friends and musicians there that he'd bring out on stage to jam with him. He's so kick back about the whole thing, it's great.

Why is it so hard to ask for help?

After a huge ordeal tonight of getting caught in a bind of moving furniture etc...some things were brought out in me that I'm taking a look at and realizing a deeper issue going on in my heart that I need some serious work on. I was in a situation tonight where I needed to call and ask some friends for help. Most of these friends are new friends, so I felt funny calling them, but more than that I felt really guilty for asking something like this from them that I knew would inconvenience them. I'm this way with close friends too, and my family. Granted it's easier to ask things from them when absolutely needed, but if I know it's going to be inconvienent to them, and if there's a way around asking, then I'll avoid asking AT ALL COSTS. So tonight after asking some friends for help, I realized in the process that I was feeling a sick feeling in my stomach of guilt which was causing me to want to avoid asking at all and just dealing with my predicament on my own. I guess there's an underlying issue that has been deeply rooted in me for a long time that's being brought to light right now. I'm asking myself, am I that much of a people pleaser that I don't feel I can ask friends for help when in need? I guess I'm afraid that I'll be asking too much, or I'll be inconveincing them too much, and the end result would be a loss of friendship. I guess when i explore that guilty feeling that's where it takes me.....I'm afraid of losing that love and acceptance that I've been building with these friends. I'm believing that care is conditional and that I need to perform a certain way to earn their love. And funny enough, I think one of the ways I recieve love from people is when they are able to help me out through acts of service, and yet I'm deathly afraid of asking people for this.

My Personality Profile....

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #3 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #4 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #5 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

I took an online personality test, and here's my results! I'm never quite sure how accurate these things really are. It seems that there's bits and pieces of me in a lot of the 16 different possible profiles, but according to my test scores, these are my top 5. The test is at this link: What's" Your Personality Type? if you want to go find out your profile!

*Correction*

So, someone just informed me that my blog entry "sister's wedding" contains some inaccurate information. My dad was actually doing the "ostrich" in a dance off....not the "rooster". BIG difference, my mistake!